crash and burn

i hate it when i am really excited about a bible study and it simply crashes and burns. that's what happened this morning. right now i'm in a time period where sunday mornings are simply not my favorite things. that happens from time to time. i don't feel like we're doing anything exciting and challenging right now and therefore it's sometimes a bit hum drum. i know myself well enough to know that most of these feelings come from my emotional cycle and that the feelings will disappear when the summer arrives. of course, my 11th & 12th grade sunday school class is a different story all together.

i usually look forward to my times with these kids each week. we usually have great discussions on scripture and how JESUS is changing our lives. i really enjoy the whole thing. i thought i was going to have the same experience today. i was really looking forward to what we were going to be discussing. i was convinced that it mattered and that the teens would get into discussing it. boy was i wrong. i don't know what was going on - probably a large dose of senioritis - but our discussion pretty much ended before it ever had a chance to get started. it was ugly.

after the lesson i quickly left the building feeling pretty dejected.

still i know that sometimes that garbage just happens. it could have been any combination of things - poor communication skills on my part, a lesson that wasn't just right for that time, a gorgeous day outside that had everyone wanting to get out of the building, young love, young hatred, who knows what it could have been. sometimes, no matter how well i have prepared, no matter how excited i am about what we are going to be dealing with, no matter how important i think the topic is ... sometimes for various reasons it's just not going to connect, the students' minds will go else where, and the whole thing is going to flop.

i know this is just going to happen every now and there nothing i can do about it. of course, that doesn't mean i have to like it when it does happen. i don't like it. in fact, i hate it.

on the good side - i have a student whose dad is a tour bus driver for the u2 vertigo tour and today he brought me one of the the tour's stage staff t-shirts.